All We Need Is Love

So, I already talked about one of my ex-ex-ex-boyfriends, and that he wanted to reconcile with me. A few months ago I thought he is THE ONE. We had such a beautiful relationship, because we knew each other since we were kids. But now I think I’m getting crazy if he insists more. He calls me in the middle of the night, he even proposed me… That boy is insane. I told him so many times that I don’t love him. I don’t have nerves anymore for that. Seriously. Now he lives in Italy and he wants me to move there. I have no feelings for him. I cleared the situation before he went in Rome to work. I said very clear , face to face, that I’m not in love with him.

Man, I really know how to choose my boyfriends. I think it writes on my face “NO COMMUNICATION”.

*After looking in the mirror*

Yeap, that’s what it writes on my face.

My destiny is to meet boys who will speak the same language as I am, but in the same time, the meaning of the words in that language will be Turkish to me and Chinese to them. This can explain a lot .

Thank You For Smoking

Last Thursday I had my first smoke. » Read the rest of the entry..

• I’ve moved but things aren’t finished yet. We need a new desk, some chairs and other little stuffs that would help the apartment to look like a cute home.

• We were so tired on the first day of Easter. But it was ok. We spent a nice time together in the family.

• On the second day of Easter I had to go to the University, because we had classes. Happy Easter to me! Haha! Romania is an orthodox country and their Easter will be at the end of April.

• In the meantime, I started to have a toothache, so today I’m going to the dentist. Sensitive teeth can make life miserable.

• A colleague of mine said about a girl that she’s a whore. That was the first time when he saw her, and he just said that because of her make-up and the way she looked around. He was so unfair. Judging someone by appearance is like looking at some food and think how good or bad will taste, without actually tasting it. » Read the rest of the entry..

I’m sure that some of you use to receive a few hate mails once in a while. In the last 4 months I’ve received a few too. Most of them were from piczo users that hav3 an 0pin1on and very good reasons to curse me (by the way, your layouts are so pretty NOT). The best reason was from xoXBlinkyXox who used the “f” word 5 times and called me a bitch because I’ve joined this fanlisting. I’ve cried 3 days after that and deleted the fanlisting from here:)).

A friend of mine, Alexa, wanted to delete her site, because she received a few hate mails and was depressed. I’ve made fun of those girls who sent those mails, she laughed and today her site is still online and very successful. She doesn’t take everything so personal anymore. And you shouldn’t take everything too personal neither. If you can’t handle yourself not to take everything personal, make sure to have a friend, who always helps you to be more powerful.

People are mean, some » Read the rest of the entry..

Last blog I said:

I’ve started to take chances and to do my best to fulfill these chances. Because I always risked, but most of the time I gave up without a fight.

Maybe some of you will think that I’ve acted childish by giving up, because I’m almost 21 and I should know what to do by taking chances, but I didn’t. Lets face it, I live in an ex-communist country with one of the highest rates of corruption from the European Union. The education here is outdated(so most of the psychologists don’t really know how to treat you). Lots of people try to change it, but there are also lots of interests by not changing the educational part(and these interests will always win). Some people promised that since 1989(when communism theoretical died in Romania) we will live in heaven. But most of the people still live from a day to another, without knowing if tomorrow they will have enough food to their children or if they will have enough money to buy medicine if they get sick. Of course, it’s easy to show cities like Timisoara and Cluj-Napoca as examples of how good and great this country is, but why don’t they show Caracal and the surroundings as a beautiful, good and great city? Because that trashy city shows the real face of Romania.

You cannot change the mentality, and the 3 million depressed people » Read the rest of the entry..

It’s been a while…

I told you in a comment why I had to take a break:

Just a few exams, flu, some projects that I have to finish, ex-bf. coming to town…

• I’m not sick anymore. Yay!
• I’ll not talk about exams, because I still have a few once in a while.
• Projects are finished, but we started to receive new ones.
• Ex- boyfriend will keep being just an EX and nothing more. I’m not interested of having a new relationship with him. We don’t have a future together. We didn’t knew how to communicate and to be sincere with each other.
• I missed more, because of a special person from my life.

Blogs can change life!

I’ve started to realize so much things since I have my blogs(I have a blog in Romanian too). And not because of selling ads(Yeah sure, google ads made me rich . I’ll take them out as soon as possible) or something, but I’ve been influenced in a good way by lots of bloggers. I’ve started to take chances and to do my best to fulfill these chances. Because I always risked, but most of the time I gave up without a fight. I never had enough desire to win by destroying all my limits and flying away, without knowing where will this flight stop. But now I fight and try to fly as much as possible.
The subject will be elaborated in the next articles, because there are too much things to say

Last year in this day(22th of January) I’ve started my first site and named it “Dancing in the Rain“. In that day I’ve received a confirmation mail from Paupergrrl.net that I can have my subdomain dancingintherain.paupergrrl.net, and in that day I’ve also put my site up.
Since than I’ve bought my own domain and hosting, I’ve changed my site into a blog, I’ve learned a lot about sites and I only got a few hate mails :)) . » Read the rest of the entry..

[off topic] I just found a post of Thomas Sinfield about how to review a blog and I find it interesting. Even if I am not a reviewer, I can watch those tips and learn from them. I thought it might be useful to all of the reviewers and bloggers.[/off-topic]

At the end of last year I had a conversation with a friend of mine about planning. I’ve been complaining about the fact that I never make plans for myself, because I know I can never make it the way I planned. There is always something that comes up and have to be done before, or sometimes I just realize that I don’t need to do the thing that I’ve been planning, because it’s worthless.

When I was a teenager(not too long ago) I always decided to go in a camp in the last moments. The trip ideas always come in a few minutes, so we pack and go. Of course, there were a few camps where I was quite forced to go, but most of the time I made the decisions in the last weeks. There was always a place for a new person in those camps.

Most of the trips and camps, where I’ve decided to go in the last few moments, were the best ones ever. Because I never made big plans, I never imagined myself how will be if I do this or that, I didn’t had expectations so it couldn’t be bad.

This is the way I always try to be positive: no plans, so no expectations, so most of the time happy.

I said “most of the time”, because » Read the rest of the entry..